My first Christmas dinner...

This year I thought I'd try something new for Christmas. I cooked. Christmas dinner. All of it. From turkey to sweet potatoes to green bean casserole, it was all me. Although, my mom did make the stuffing, and a rockin' pecan pie, (I just ate the last piece tonight!) I definitely was busy in the kitchen.
For someone who usually only cooks for one person, this was quite the task!
I have to say I enjoyed the cooking. And the internet is a GREAT resource for recipes. I'll have to post the recipe for the sweet potato casserole. It was by far the best thing on the menu.
It was a quiet Christmas for my family. My brother and sister both didn't come home this Christmas, and since I just flew to see my brother for Thanksgiving, traveling was out for this holiday. So, staying home with the parents it was.
I think cooking definitely made me miss my family a little bit less. It kept me focused a little bit less on the day, and more on the task at hand.
My parents were fun, and we ended the day with a movie at the theater. Not bad for a day I was dreading without the family. And it was 100 percent better than last Christmas, which was horrible because I had the stomach flu. Christmas stinks when you're sick, that's all I have to say.

How I thought my life would be different...

As I look back at the last almost 30 years of my life, I can honestly say I never thought I'd be exactly where I am today. Things are turning out much different than I imagined them.

First of all, I never thought I'd be turning thirty, and not be married, let alone never having a serious relationship.

I know it's becoming more common today. I've read several articles and books telling me that women this day and age are marrying and having children later in life. While I'm reading this is normal...I definitely feel a sense of abnormality in my life. Things are just out of order. All my ducks are not in a row .

I don't know what my next step should be, because the stairway I had built for my life has ended.