How I thought my life would be different...

As I look back at the last almost 30 years of my life, I can honestly say I never thought I'd be exactly where I am today. Things are turning out much different than I imagined them.

First of all, I never thought I'd be turning thirty, and not be married, let alone never having a serious relationship.

I know it's becoming more common today. I've read several articles and books telling me that women this day and age are marrying and having children later in life. While I'm reading this is normal...I definitely feel a sense of abnormality in my life. Things are just out of order. All my ducks are not in a row .

I don't know what my next step should be, because the stairway I had built for my life has ended.