My goals for the next 5 years...

So, a friend of mine inspired me to stop sitting on my ass, pining away for the husband I may never haven and live my life. One of her suggestions was to make a list of goals, dreams, etc. of where I see myself in five years, and what I want to have accomplished by then.
Here's what I came up with:

• Bless someone with an anonymous gift.
• Go to Seattle, see the pacific ocean
• Live on the West Coast
• Start a thought-provoking blog (check!)
• Lose 50 lbs.
• Go on a missions trip to a foreign country (check!)
• Get a master's degree
• Buy a Digital SLR camera
• Make God my focus, finding a husband second
• Read through the Bible
• Have a dinner party for my married/dating friends
• Run/Walk in a 5k (in training! - Park 2 Park in September!)
• Buy a bike
• Volunteer at a woman's shelter
• Write/Start a book
• Make an afghan
• Go to New York City
• Write and article and get it published
• Become more organized
• Become more fiscally responsible
• Get a piano teaching certificate
• Witness to a total stranger (check!)
• Ride a roller coaster with my arms up
• Take one of the widows from church out to lunch (check!)
• Take an oil/acrylic painting class
• Take a dance class
• Go hiking in Colorado
• Conquer fear of heights (check!)
• Get a dog
• Attempt to complete this list.
  
• Never forget that God loved me first, and will love me despite the fact that let him down and get distracted.

There are a million reasons why I want to do this list, but the first is that I had built up a relationship with a guy in my head. For five years. For five years, I didn't let my life move past a certain point until this past week when God sent me a wake-up call. The guy started dating someone else.

Many tears, a lot of anger - at God, myself, and others - followed. How could this have happened? Didn't God see that this hurt? Couldn't he see my pain?

I was not only devastated, I felt cheated. Cheated out of time, feelings, energy, and most of all emotions that should be reserved by a God who will always pursue me, and will always return the love I have for him, no matter what.

So, my life will change. For the better. I will choose to live my life to the fullest, and as God intended it.